Thursday, June 3, 2010

Intuitive Tuesday on Thursday -- Queen of Cups Divine Tarot Again

On Intuitive Tuesdays I select a card and give you my interpretation of it. On Thursday I select one reader's comment and pull an additional card.

I encourage you to read about the additional card I pulled this week and see how it applies to your life. Anything that is brought to one of us is a message for all of us.

This week's Intuitive Tuesday cards were The Magician and The Three of Pentacles.  Both cards have to do with your work and talents and how you combine your gifts to fulfill your life purpose.

Today's follow-up card comes from the Legacy of the Divine Tarot. It is in response to Elizabeth whose comment was:
Hi -- I've followed you for a while but not commented much or ever before.
This combination of cards really spoke to me, but I still don't know exactly what they are saying. They came the morning that I found out I had not been selected for yet another project/contract. I have been struggling to sell my hours at work over the past six months or so, which is a very new problem for me. At first I felt that they were reinforcing all those signals: I need to really take stock of where I am work and find a way to fix it.

Then, as I thought about it more, I wondered about the struggle I have to balance between my work obligations and my home obligations. I feel like I am never succeeding at either one these days: not successful at work; and giving in too much to anger and impatience at home. I have a demanding job and I'm the only earner in our family, so we rely on my work; my husband is dying of Cystic Fibrosis and is very sick most of the time plus there is a lot to coordinate with his care -- multiple doctor visits a week, the home nurse, etc.; we have a 3 year old son; a 100 year old house; a big, needy dog.

I often wonder if I am in completely the wrong work; but I can't imagine accepting the risk and uncertainty of trying to change careers right now. Or I think, I need to find a way to work part-time for a while, so I can better support my husband and be there for him, but, he is so withdrawn, and I don't like the idea of taking the financial hit, or know if we could afford it, or what it would do to my career in the long run. I do need to try to take stock of all my talents and apply them to help be there for my husband and child and make my work situation better -- but I don't really know how to start.

Thank you for this weekly opportunity to reflect. With love,

Elizabeth, it sounds like you have a lot going on -- not only in the situations around you (your husband, his illness, your child, your home, etc.), but also on your own personal journey. I have a hunch that what used to seem like "real life" to you, seems like a distant memory and you wonder, "What happened?" Your days are filled with your work, your husband, your child...and there may not be a lot left over to nurture YOU!

When I shuffled the cards and focused on your comments, I selected the Queen of Cups, which I have featured in earlier posts. Click here to read more about the Queen of Cups.

In my previous post, I talked about how intuitive the Queen of Cups is...and I believe this is an important part of why it has come up for you. There is something that you have been subconsciously pondering for a has to do with your bigger purpose. Maybe this is why you wonder about finding the "right" work for you.

Does your current work have to do with something logical, measurable, tangible? For some reason it feels that you are good at it, but that possibly your creativity feels stifled.

The Queen of Cups also symbolizes your nurturing, loving side that LOVES to care for others....but, remember that this side can become overused and possibly overwhelmed.

Pulling the Queen of Cups for you today may symbolize several things:
  • It's time to take care of YOU. I recently wrote an article on taking the time and energy to nurture yourself called, "Keeping Your Pitcher Full." In it I used the metaphor of your energy being like a pitcher of water. Each time you give to someone else, you pour water out of your pitcher. When you nurture yourself, you add water back in. The problem comes when you are pouring out more than you are taking in. If you'd like to read the entire article, click here.  
The Queen of Cups may indicate to take some time for nurture your soul, ponder these larger questions, etc.
  • The Queen of Cups is about nurturing others. In your comment you talked about being home and helping your husband more, but that you feel unsure about taking a pay cut. You feel pulled between your work and being with your family. Remember that going to work and financially supporting your family is also nurturing your family. So even if you aren't tending to their needs directly, it's you and your income that supports the system and makes sure they are cared for.
  • Third, the Queen of Cups is either about an intuitive woman in your life that can offer assistance...and/or about tapping into your intuition to find your answers. Perhaps you've been SO busy taking care of everything that you haven't had the time to tune in and hear what's true for you. Now is the time to tune in and the Queen of Cups is a reminder to do so.
Maybe one of the best ways to nurture yourself is to take some time to ponder where you are in your life right now -- everything from the day-to-day details, all the way to the big picture (where are you on your life path).

The message for today's card is to nurture yourself and listen to the Queen of Cups inside you...because she has some important messages...if you stop long enough to hear.


excavator said...

I was thinking about Elizabeth, and reflecting on how very hard it is to meet the needs of a 3 year old even when conditions are perfect. I'm remembering how agonizing it was sometimes when I felt pulled between the choices of social and occupational obligations and knowing that these priorities meant nothing to my little ones, who needed me so much too. Elizabeth's circumstances sound agonizing, and I'm amazed at the quiet courage you show every minute of every day.

I just had to acknowledge this.

Lori Lavender Luz said...

Oh, I want to send my good wishes to Elizabeth, too.

Thanks for this insight, Sheri. While others may need to be aware of nurturing themselves, I will take away that I can nurture those around me a little more. That there is enough of me to do so.

MentorTAZ said...

Elizabeth I can't even pretend to understand what you are feeling now.

I send Love to hold you and comfort you.